Thursday, 9 June 2011

姑妈~

我不记得
没有印象
可是潜意识里
就觉得特别亲

妈妈说
你之前病入膏肓
还能提起我的名字
问我有没有回去

这次回去
还是在医院里见
柔柔的为你水肿的水按摩
你对我却一点不陌生
惭愧的
我自己还陌生的缩了一下

坐夜的晚上
他们说没有人哭
因为他们都知道
这是解脱
是欢喜的

去吧!那是解脱
不能送你最后一程
我却觉得你知道的



突然有少少子欲养而亲不在的感触。。。。




god, I promise I'll love my life
appreciate what I having
I know you trying to warn me from these
but please stop taking away them from my life



Sunday, 29 May 2011

崎岖的五月~

用崎岖这个字
好像也不是很适合
不知道什么形容词才能让我形容我的五月

就这样
五月最后一天就在眉变
这个月的自己
就只是在努力工作
每天的工作

身边发生的事情好像在提醒自己
生命的无常
给我上了很震撼的课
心一直还在揪着
隔壁ah pak、加咏突然的离开
留下我们不知所措

三岁
应该是我第一次接触生死的离别
是最亲的爸爸
虽然如今毫无印象
却觉得当时自己是坦然面对的
时间过去了
我好像从来没有哭泣过

随着年长
我却开始不能接受
不知道怎么接受
因为不喜欢突然的变化
怠慢的态度
不再喜欢变化
不喜欢一次一次的适应新的东西

只能提醒自己
要记得
无常
事情都是在变化的
要自己找回那个适应能力很强的自己
来面对这一切的

提醒自己
把感恩作每一天的开始
把美好作每一天的结束
把常常挂在嘴边的那句
活在当下
把 每一秒活好
就不会在下一秒遗憾





乱写了一篇,因为自己心里真的很乱~决定对着桌前的佛像静坐静下心来



Stay LIVE
Stay LOVE LIFE

Saturday, 30 April 2011

惜福~

这两天,
东西都不顺心
一直埋怨,哭泣,钻牛角尖。。。

别人没有在跟着自己的意愿做,
开始不爽,
发脾气,
然后放弃

妹妹提醒我的
把感恩做每一天的开始,
把美好作每一天的结束,
我似懂非懂,
每一天有敷衍的给自己想了,
却没有真正的感受。

陆续几天,
事情一直发生,
我理所当然的把每件事推到别人身上

有人一棒打醒了我!
没有东西的发生是理所当然的,
他对你好,不是理所当然的!
她借你笔记,不是理所当然的!

请珍惜,惜福~
没有东西是理所当然的!
请感恩~



I nearly forget the thankful heart
I nearly forget to say thanks
thanks for your love.


Sunday, 24 April 2011

我的那幅画~


原来,梦想的那幅画一直都在心里
是自己不够勇敢,不敢去把它画出来

谢谢你,简单的一句“你要的是什么?”

我看清楚了

画了出来

我喜欢我心里的那幅画!


that's the dream!
I see it!
I see them!
and I love it!


Tuesday, 19 April 2011

回来~

回到英国已经第四个早上,睡了三个夜了~
看一看上一次写的部落,已经是回马来西亚前两个礼拜的事了

这一次回去,看了很多,搞清楚了一些,
然而,觉得责任大了很多~

所以这次的回来我,泪了很多
都第四天了~

我明白我不能再活再别人的看法里,
我明白我不能因为想念,不舍,就在原地停歇

其实,真的不长了,再不到20个礼拜我就会结束我的实习。

其实我害怕,我害怕面对自己。。。
害怕前面的路。。。。

勇敢的我,不见了
敢冒险的我藏了起来

可是我承诺我自己,
必须赶快站起来
必须赶快找回来

还有承诺了,
这篇部落以后,
我就得好好的活在当下!
把每一刻做好!
那样子,就问心无愧了!
I'm sorry to make you worry
I promise I will stand back up
from now on
please remind me
you are always there supporting me!

Wednesday, 16 March 2011

随笔~

依然是每晚洗澡后、睡前抓起了老鼠
眼睛随着鼠标乱晃,食指不停地按着,

今晚,无意的按到了自己的部落
如往常般按进了几个想看的连接

发现
那一个属于大家的部落
在不知不觉中
有了很多岁月的痕迹
好几篇部落
都让我的心揪了起来
感触
时间飞逝
中学毕业好像是很遥远以前的事了
已经不想再去算

最近
朝九晚五成了习惯
兼职成了娱乐
最期待的周日成了睡觉的日子
总是觉得自己时间不够
没有多的时间关心一下四周
想一下未来

日日重复的动作
让我想赶快结束这一切
回到赶功课 怕考试的日子

很想向世俗报告我的情况
很想回到实在踏实的情况

突然想说
游泳
很爽
全身放松
浸在泳池里
最好的一点是 打球后肌肉会痛 汗流一身
游泳后不会汗臭 不会肌肉酸痛 晚上睡觉还会特别甜

最近
2012世界末日的恐慌又浮现
大家都在讨论
不远的东洋
发生了天灾
每天午餐时间看的新闻报告片断
就像在重复看着2012电影片断
大家都在祈祷
我想说,请相信信念的力量
请马上停止破坏
请不要制造恐慌

还有
伦敦奥运
开始卖票
我也参与了
无奈的是
不是有钱就可以买票
你还得跟电脑系统巴结好
让他选中你的申请

2012年的七月
会是我毕业的日子
也是奥运开始的日子
飞来英国的机票应该被炒高了价钱


期待
多两个周末的到来
希望两个周末后的三个星期
时间可以比平时慢一倍
又或者
不要谈心
慢一点 我就满足

Thursday, 3 March 2011

I amsterdam!!

It been a long time I havent write my blog in English.
Honestly, I can fell my Written English been going backward!
Well, I do speak lots English everyday in Work in Park Cakes,
but what I can tell is,
English people themselve never care about grammar, never care about spelling.
It's really excusable for us, the asia dun write good English, dun speak good English.
It's not our first English, It's YOURS!
and yourself is the one who can use it good!

STOP. Just trying to stop my expression being higher when discuss about this topic.

Go back to my blog.

Just back from a weekend trip to Amsterdam, the capital of Holland.
( I pusporly write out so that some people wont ask me why are you not going Holland? LOLz..)
It was just a 3 days 2 nights trip, and not much preparation been done before the trip.
Even in the flight ticket been booked just 3 or 4 days before we fly. O.o
Fortunenately , we still got chance to get cheap flight and cheap hotel.

However, the weather in Amsterdam is out of expectation bad!!
3 days, we never see a slice of sunshine.
2/3 days, my shoes and jacket wets.
the 2nd day, which we should have travel the most, It was a big big rain, and strong strong wind!
And from that moment, I just realise, why Holland is the country of WindMills!!!

In term of Amsterdam, people might think of Red Light District, the legal of Drug taking,
Yeah, of course we do try...OOOppss...calm down! we do see and feel the panomana of the city.
We went to Red Light District in the 1st night, walking and feeling the world famous district in person.
Not through people words, not through books, nor tv show!
Girl?Women? or the best word to use is Ladies?( I dunno which word to use for them.)
They standing in their own little room with big clear window to display theirselves,
using difference ways to promote themselves.
Man will just open the door and bargain the price with them, just like what we normally do when we buying things in market.
If the price ok, the man will just go in , curtain will put on, and the business started!
Well, treat it as a business, and a job, you will find it is ordinary.
I was so excited to take photo with my camera on hand,
and haven't noticed that camera is prohibited in Red Light District.
PLEASE RMB NOT TO TAKE PHOTO IN RED LIGHT DISTRICT,
otherwise unknown consequence might bring you to the death!
I was luckily just shouted by bad words.
We had watched a real women show on th stage! It was the 1st time for 4 for us.
A good experience, and an extraordinary show! I was concern about the reaction of John.
Koey, Shiro and Me were so excited from the begining til the end of the show, while he just fall asleep ?

Nearly forgot about another best part of this trip! Heineken Experience! I was fall down for 30 mins for a small pint of PURE Heineken! Some people dont like Heineken, but I can tell, PURE Heineken taste big difference in Heineken Experience! Smell good, taste good, even make me drunk longer!!@.@ I used to just sleep for 5-10 mins for normal beer!!

Windmills is our aim for 2nd days...
Well, I can just say, It was SO SO SO SO beautiful, let's pictures tell you the story.

However,as you can see, how wet are we. I can imagine if it was good day, I will definitely want to stay there for longer!



Whole days, we havent eat anything, just to go for a view of windmills!
and come to the night, finally, treat ourselves best ever meal in the whole trip.
Dutch PanCakes!
compare with the Cheft reccomened Thai Chicken Pancakes (that taste extremely like roti canai with curry) 4 of us prefer Dutch PanCakes with Icecream, hot red berries, Whipped Cream and Icing! Sweet is the Best!!



And here come to the last day, John wanted to go to AJAX, amsterdam's football club.
Well, not instered in Unfamous Football team, if it was Real Madrid which DB played,
I maybe will just make it into my waiting list. XD
Koey and Shiro wanted to go Van Goh museum.
Well, again! I know Van Goh! but come to watch and view his picture,
honestly, I dunno~
plus wanted me to pay to get in the museum, and facing quite wall and picture,
I will just run away.

And I did! The last few hours in Amsterdam, I was alone and walking around the City.
Of course, the night before I spend nearly 3 hours to make a little research for this city.
And of course, I know where to go!
Picture tell you stories!!

Come to the last hour...I was walk for non-stop nearly 4 hours, in a windy and with my heavy backpack on! Too tired. and was statisfied with this trip! =D
Treat myself the last meal before head to airport.

was sitting in the pizza shop for nearly an hour to wait until the time that meet up with others.
Like the staff of this shop so much!


After this trip, Koey told me we need to eat bihun for 1 month! no outside food, no eat out for 1 month. She is TRUE.

Tuesday, 15 February 2011

~紀念三個難產嬰~

無軌。。最近的自己,最適合用這兩個字形容。。。一点都不像平时的我~

看看上一篇部落以後,我抹殺了3篇部落的生命,兩個月不到的時間,3篇部落難產接著喪命。。。

都怪朝九晚五那殘忍的幕後黑手,麻將誘惑那可惡的幫兇。。我才會錯手促成大錯。。。現在的我,想要為胎死腹中的部落們完成他們最後的心願。。其實他們都為了尋仇,到我夢擾我卿夢,最後,還是良心發現,決定用此舉彌補過錯,把他們各自的遺言公諸於世。。。

第1篇:他想跟大家分享他前世最難忘的旅程,夢裡,他帶我走了一趟,是個很特別的地方,我看到了很多名畫家picasso的抽象畫,明明身穿著冬天才會穿的衣外套,眼前卻出現著熱帶專有的熱帶植物。。。後來到了地中海邊!好像吃了很多當地的食物,特別新鮮的海鮮炒飯,最後,好像在品嚐 兩種很好喝的飲料。。接著我醒了。

第2篇:他上世应该是个工作狂~梦里,我只见到办公室,电脑,很多的paperwork...还有很多打著領帶,穿著正式服裝的面具人。。整個夢境的感覺很不好,不想呆久,所以再怎樣難,也得逼著自己起床。。。

第3篇:講出這個部落的之前,我想說這個寶寶胎死腹中真的很可惜~看了他的夢給朋了我快樂幸福的感覺~雖然夢很朦朧,可是我看到了一大群人一起圍在桌前吃飯。好像是慶祝什麼的,還看到很多的食物。偶爾聽到麻將洗牌的聲音。。

Sunday, 2 January 2011

环游世界旅程 正式展开! 第一站 ~~西班牙~~

环游世界旅程 正式展开!
2011年的第一篇部落格。。
一直以为2011不会是什么特别的一年,
今天不过是完成我的placement工作,回到大学继续最后一年的课程。。。

结果冥冥中,命运的安排跟时间的配合,让我在阴差阳错间,在一月份的头几天出发去旅行咯!!
老实说,真的很兴奋!
算起来,我就一直觉得自己这一次出发,才算是正式的展开我的环游世界之旅。。。

也很庆幸的,我的第一站是我很想去的西班牙!
一年前学了大半年的西班牙文~就开始对西班牙情有独钟!
出发前也不忘拿出我的西班牙文笔记复习复习呗!

美丽的风景,让人舒服的温度!是现在在英国的人最向往的!
英国这两年的天气真的冷到,冷到呕(最近发现香港人除了常讲“爆”“极”还用“呕”,都是些很搞笑的潮语!)
所以,冬季最好的旅游地点除了到雪山上冷到极的去滑雪(滑雪原本是我这次旅行的exe-Plan,可是基于时间和金钱的配合不来,放弃了)
就是到欧洲南边的国家去旅行"避寒“了!

亲爱的部落,
等等我吧!等我几天回来后,就给你update 美美的照片!
我去享受咯~~等我绕一圈回来呗!!

Hola~ Espana !! Yo vengo!




Let's throw away the burden and responsibility
And put on the backpack !
relax and enjoy!

Thursday, 2 December 2010

给我最爱的olijen~~

已经是第三个生日没有帮你庆祝了。。。
这次暑假回去,你的那一声埋怨,其实我有一直耿耿于怀!
三个生日,我错过了多少你的生活?

虽然我们从小就不常在一起!
我们跟平常姐妹不同,没有在同一间小学,没有在同一所中学。。。
虽然才隔个两年,却没有多少机会一起去上学。。。
错过了你的叛逆期(虽然我觉得你现在还在叛逆,哈哈)
也错过了看你学车的时期!(我觉得一定会很好笑的!)

很想念跟你一起躺在家里地板上望着天花板聊天的日子,
从小小的狗屎,到大大的长颈鹿我们都聊!
聊到妈妈放工回家,骂我们还没冲凉为止。。。
很想念我们三母女有自己的房间不回,
偏要挤在一起,熄了灯一直讲话讲不停。。。
结果第二天累倒黑眼圈~~

Jen,你记得吗?
你一年级的时候,被那个大眼仔欺负,然后我去帮你出头,结果被你的卓老师叫去班上训话~
今天自己坐火车上班,看到前面那对姐妹一直在聊天,后来两个人头挨着头就睡着了!
我想起了你!想起了朵儿和蔷儿~
还有我们的咖啡馆梦想!

那天在我出发回来英国前两天,我说要先在你回家,然后再跟朋友出去,
你开着我们的picanto...结果突然哭了!
我明白你的不舍!
还在的再之前一点的吗?也是因为我差不多要出国了,却没有时间陪你们,你竟然打电话去骂镇扬。。。应该也哭了!

我想说,虽然我很多时候没能陪在你身边,但是可以肯定的是,你跟Homa都是我生命里的第一位!我自己才是第二位!我很感谢上天让我拥有你们!我爱你们!

Jen...重点来了! 生日快乐!我保证你的21岁我一定要陪你过!让妈妈也煮寿面给你吃!还要加两个鸡蛋的!